Know your worth
How many times do you stay where you are even though it’s 1. Not bringing you joy, 2. Depleting your energy, 3. Harboring resentment and creating anxiety, and etc. Do you just continue to mash down those feelings of not wanting to be where you are, pretending everything is right as rain? Or do you complain about it all the time, and feel as if that’s all you do anymore?
Well I am going to tell you this now, 1. You are not honoring your higher self, 2. While you may not be honoring yourself, have patience for change. 3. Accept where you are at, and know it’s not where you will stay. For instance I want to change a few things in my life. Things that have given me anxiety and just depleted me for a while now and I keep looking for the right fit but nothing has come into fruition so far. I am being proactive in this quest and am allowing the chips to fall where they may. I’ve checked out numerous things to fill the needs I have but nothing has been the “perfect” fit for me to jump on it.
That is the self worth talking. I know exactly what I want from my next endeavor and won’t accept anything less than that. Why? Because I know what my soul needs for growth, I know the things that will bring me joy, and I know that I deserve them. I am envisioning these things for my future, and I see it, but all I need is patience.
Now what made me get to that point? Where I knew what I wanted, down to the smallest details? And what on earth brought me to not settle for less? Well first off I had to make a lot of mistakes on things I didn’t like. I had to live with the things I didn’t like in order to understand what I definitely didn’t want in my life. Once I knew what I didn’t want, I understand that settling for anything less was dishonoring me. It would be like accepting a vanilla ice cream when you clearly asked for mint chocolate chip with rainbow sprinkles. YUM. You take your voice and silence it. When you allow that boundary to be crossed, to surrender to it you surrender your choice, and a piece of your soul suffers.
What has been going on in your life that you have been starting to see that hey, I no longer accept this as my reality anymore, yet you stay out of comfort, fear, or your own worth telling you you can’t do better? When I was younger I was with a man for 8 years and engaged. The relationship was never solid, both of us had our role in why it wouldn’t work and yet I stayed, and likewise. I had so much fear in leaving even though I knew for so long it would never make me happy or fulfilled. Sure I had a lot of growing up to do, but I also didn’t know my worth back then. I thought of myself as worthless, unable to afford a life I wanted. I accepted defeat everyday instead of rising above and changing my situation. That right there made me bitter, depleted, and depressed. I wasn’t living in my truth or honoring my higher self. Until one day I finally said no more. This is done.
I changed my life that day. I started to take my choices back, my worth back, and as I crawled out of my own hell I found Hope. I found self love, gratitude and compassion. I found listening and hearing others, I found patience (yes I still can be impatient) But I found myself, and honored her. So do you want to continue the way you are, slowly sliding into your own personal hell, full of resentments, regrets, close-minded ness? Or are you ready to find your worth and take your life back?! It’s your life, you only have 1 here in this body, treasure it and love you!!!
Today was a 7.