Releasing Guilt
A couple of weeks ago I said to my boyfriend, you know what I am almost tempted to drop out of school and not finish it. I literally had a month left this semester and he was like no finish it, you will feel so much better when you do. I huffed and puffed because I was so stressed with everything going on but did as he said and just kept chugging along. So here I am now gaining a certificate in personal training this semester. Now had I given up because it’s just to much work I wouldn’t have this and I would of felt crummy and disappointed in myself. So I say to you know, I know the work is hard, I know the stress is piling up, but don’t give up or surrender.
There has been times in the past I’ve given up either because the stress, the amount of work, or I just didn’t believe I was capable of the work. Every time I did I became depressed, disappointed, and even unmotivated. Why? Because I allowed all that momentum, all that planning, all that energy into something and here I am just giving it up because I don’t want to do it anymore. Now there are times where I gave up on things and felt great about the decision because I knew it wasn’t or wouldn’t serve me and my growth. So what is the difference here? Well the guilt.
There are 2 types of guilt, guilt from disappointing yourself and others, and guilt from others disappointing you. The first one you typically feel shame in. You feel more upset about because you let yourself down. With others you may tend to feel more anger, resentment, bitterness, and betrayal. Then you feel shame because you allowed that to happen. Understanding the type of guilt you have and where it’s derived from can help you be able to release that energy, instead of holding on to it.
Guilt can be a hard feeling to overcome. It can make you feel bad about where you are, what you are doing, what you aren’t doing. Guilt can ruin your momentum or instead, it can be a catalyst for growth. When we feel guilty we aren’t in line with our energy and life force. So instead we need to thank whatever it is we feel that way for, for teaching us what we don’t want from ourself or from others. When we can change the story and make it less resistant than we are capable of releasing guilt.
Like for years I felt responsible for the reason us kids had such a hard life. I blamed myself for so long because I was the oldest and because I was blamed in return for things that were out of my control. I held on to that for so long and it wasn’t until I finally realized that I need to stop taking on the actions of others that I allowed myself to release this. I no longer blame myself for it because it wasn’t my fault. I was a kid. And since I have been able to release this I am able to create more momentum and joy in areas of my life that I want to. That in turn helps me to not give up in things that I enjoy.
When you are able to release yourself from the pain and negative experiences you open yourself up for the experiences that bring you joy and alignment. That is why it’s so crucial that we work on ourselves. It’s important, like when you clean your house out, you have to do that with all that old programming as well. It’s when you stay complacent that you find yourself spiraling into a state of depression, anxiety, and self hatred. Because when you honor yourself you expand, when you don’t you contract until you implode. The choice like always my friend is yours. Stay well, and be safe.
Today was a 9.