Distractions
I feel so distracted tonight. I have tried to write something at least 5 times tonight and have not been able to think of anything. It’s as if every idea I have just won’t stick. I begin typing but then am like what the heck am I even talking about. Have you had one of those days? Where you feel kind of like a space cadet? Distracted so easily by every thought, every movement that is happening around you? But then when you try to hone in and focus you literally can’t seem to do the things you wanted to do?
Normally days like this I don’t write a blog entry, I skip it because mentally I am just fatigued and unable to fixate on a topic. I’ve been trying to write for the past 2 hours, and what normally takes me 30 min to do has turned into a process. But instead of doing my normal give up and skip a day I am pushing through this because this thing I created, it’s showed up for me everyday. The consistency I have had in writing this blog is probably the most I’ve had in a very long time. It has taught me about the follow through and the continuous dedication to achieve my goals.
Writing everyday has given me confidence, and the ability to sort through my feelings. It has shown me my own growth and understanding of life and its lessons. I thought today how different I am from 5 years ago. How much I have become me in an authentic and genuine way. I’ve spent the past few years in this desire to challenge everything I know or thought I knew, to explore new things and figure out where I belong in this world, and I feel like I am here. I am.
You know when you have days where you just don’t have it in you to do anything? Nothing to give, or focus to get it done? Those are the days where you need to take your time with everything. Allow it to come in it’s own speed and practice patience for yourself. We aren’t ON everyday, and that’s okay. But recognizing that and making space for yourself to take a little longer will allow you to continue striving for it. I put so much pressure on myself to get it done fast and put out content, which in turn made me chose just to skip it. But when I relaxed, allowed myself to be distracted and take my time writing this I was able to put this whole entry together. So give yourself a break when you aren’t on, or you feel slightly off. Use compassion and love to accept where you are and then see where it goes from there.
Today was a 9!