Writings on the Wall
What does writing do for me? Well I have written some personal things on this blog. I have written things that leave me open and vulnerable, why? Because I think the world is cast to much in filters that beautify reality. Writing opens me up to the possibility that what I believe is not necessarily true. That maybe I am being closed minded to see another side of my own story. It allows me to dig inside my uncomfortableness and pull out what is down there.
So I want you to do some writing yourself. I want you to find something that has eaten away at you and write from a place of pure vulnerability. Whether that looks like anger, or sadness, bitterness, or whatever, be as open about your feelings as possible. But there is one thing I want you to do while you write, take ownership of your feelings in it. Recognize your own part that you played and own your own faults because we all have many. Through that you can work to improve them.
Writing is a way to put thought to paper, like a snapshot of a memory. It gives you an idea of yourself. Looking at old writings of mine which are far and few in between now, the maturity and growth just in language skills alone is vastly improved. It’s like when you put notches on your doorway of your growth as a child, same for writing. Where I was 10 years ago is not even close to where I am now. And I hope that 10 years from now the transformation is even grander. When we write we show our creativity, our feelings, our intelligence, we take a piece of ourselves and put it down, for whomever we wish to see it. I write to share my journey, because if I can help one person pull back from something devastating to their life then I would of done the work I was born to do. I know I have spoken about things from my past but it shaped me. The rejections, the heartaches, the hurt I wouldn’t change one second of it because it has brought me here. I blame my family not just for my shortcomings but for who I became. Their lack of love made me strive harder to find my place in the world and taught me how to love so deeply and incredibly. Their abandonments lead me to self reliance and empathy. Every thing I blamed opened me up to gain, so when you blame someone you can’t just speak about what was wrong or lack, you have to realize you also gained and became who you are because of it. No matter how hard that is to face, they were not who you wanted maybe but who you needed them to be for you to become who you are now.
So write something to free yourself from the cage. Open yourself up to the possibility that this one thing you focus on and holds you down is all just in your head. It’s just a commercial that keeps bringing you back in, putting more of your money into a product that just doesn’t work. You can rewrite it, you have that power. But it’s up to you to recognize it, and through that awareness transform your old habits to new power. We are all alchemists, we have the ability to transform our own lives, are you ready to live in that magic?
today was an 8.