Trust yourself
This one can be really hard especially when it comes to new unexplored territories. But let me tell you that your higher self knows what is best for you. No matter what is going on with you your gut is never wrong. As energetic beings we forget how to trust ourselves in this reality we currently reside in. We tend to believe our value is based on others opinions, on science, on validation from society, from what we can see that we tend to shush that inner voice. That can make you instead chose things that wind up to be completely wrong for you. When you learn to listen to yourself that is when you can allow that to be your guiding beacon for the future.
Today I worked on a client and knew right away that something was wrong. As soon as I laid my hands on her stomach I felt anxiety severely. This led me to trust my instincts and ask her what she has been so afraid of lately that hasn’t allowed her to move forward with her life and so on. I asked her some questions that were pertinent to what I was feeling and her response, “How did you know this. You hit the nail on the head.” She then started to explain everything she had bottled up in her as I continued to work on her. For me this is what I live for, listening to what is beneath the surface and in the depths of someone. That is what brings me so much joy and even a high in a sense. As she unleashed things she kept apologizing, to which I said don’t. Can’t you feel that your body is relaxing? Don’t you feel better? And she did.
So many times the aches and pains in the body aren’t because of the physical body. It’s because of the emotional body or even energetic body. We are told by society that we can only believe what we see but that utter nonsense is what keeps us humans bottling up our pain, our struggle, our emotions so that we can look “normal.” But I have always been fascinated by the things we can’t see especially when I was younger. The only reason I never truly embraced this was fear that I would turn into my mother, a bipolar/Schizophrenic. Because of this I stopped trusting my gut for a long time. I stopped allowing those feelings I get when I touch others to be pushed aside. How could I trust that, it hasn’t been “proven by science, or deemed real in societies eyes.” Would people look down on me? All these thing flooded me for so long and I remained quiet because of it. But now I am learning to trust it. I began this journey about a year ago, little by little learning to listen with my hands, learning to hear with my gut.
After the session with my client she felt a lot better so I asked her if I could perform a reiki/quantum healing/emotion code session on her later. After the session we had just had she said yes! Absolutely. Fast forward to later this evening when I took time out to perform the session. I used all the techniques I learned in training, and then the meditation series I had been doing over the past few weeks had given me even more guidance. I began the session allowing myself to let go of me yet protecting myself. Grounding in a way. Then I went into focus 12 from my meditation, a place beyond the body that allows me to be with my higher conscious. I’ve been working on it daily tapping into new tools and today I put it to the test. The session was unlike anything I’ve performed yet, if I opened my eyes all I saw was sparkles instead of clear surroundings. My forehead had a small pulse, it’s usually much larger but it’s hard for me to fully adapt into my third eye. When the session was over I couldn’t believe an hour was over. I could of continued on but felt drawn back.
After the session I explained very little I did because how do you explain that? I had known an age in which she had strong emotions and told her about it. She couldn’t believe that I had known that was the age of someone close to hers passing. It was validation for me that trusting my higher self, the universe, the things larger than me was how I help others. In trusting myself I felt like a transmuter, pulling out all the negative things in her heart and transforming these negative things into love. That is what one of my gifts is, to transmute other’s pain. That is why I am such an amazing massage therapist, because a secret is I take it on. I can’t always get rid of it which is why I am doing the meditations and learning to discharge it because I want to help others truly heal. It’s why I went through the life I did because it taught me true compassion and empathy, which is why I was able to finally accept it. Because it’s a strength now, it made me get here so that I can help others who have suffered and still suffer.
That session filled me with the most joy I’ve had in a long time. When I get to hear things in someone’s soul that has created the most darkest feelings I feel like a beacon who can help light their way with healing. The vulnerability in it, the authenticity in it is so genuine that it becomes beautiful. Why? Because in those moments they acknowledge the demons, their inner darkness and that to me shows the greatest strength and love. It’s choosing yourself even with the darkness and imperfections and fear, and that leads to self love. By accepting what was you can learn to accept what is and find love in your life. Love for yourself, for others, for what you do and allow it in. But the first step is to acknowledge it and be open. Going into it with a closed mind only continues to shut you out of living your life to the fullest.
What is something you don’t allow yourself to trust in your gut? Do you keep pushing it aside because there is no way it’s right? Next time you get this feeling I want you to listen to it. You don’t have to fully believe it but just learn to listen. Hear what that feeling is telling you, feel it. By learning to acknowledge things within you will begin to understand how to trust yourself. I hope you listen to it next time and maybe open your mind to the possibility that it is right. Even if you don’t agree that is a step forward in you opening yourself up to your highest self. Be well my friends.
Today was a 10!