Receive

I have finally allowed myself to receive recently. It was like something inside me unfurled and was brought back to life, like the rose of Jericho. And since then the love I have in my heart has expanded. I’ve received so much abundance when it comes to love from others and it makes me want to give back more and help change the world. 

Do you allow yourself to receive love? To receive connections and have deep and meaningful relationships? Are you open to receive? Like truly receive it? The thing about receiving is that it fills you with a gratitude unlike anything I’ve ever had. Today at work I received gifts from clients. I was completely blown away by their generosity these passed couple days. 

I haven’t been a part of a family for a long time. Like sure I have my dad but he isn’t able to really give much, not just because of finances but his heart is a little blocked up. So I haven’t really received gifts from family in a long time which is okay now. I’ve come to accept that my family is divided and distant, but for a long time this made me blind to the love, and gifts and things I received. I couldn’t see them, or that I was allowed to receive them and thus I was closed. If anyone gave me anything I felt guilty, I felt like I was unworthy to receive it, I felt like I had to give in return because I can’t just take. I couldn’t understand how someone gave me something of their own volition. Like me? Really? 

But then the other night I felt myself realize something, I am ready to receive. I became opened and finally saw how loved I was by people, and my partner. I finally was able to feel how much love I had in my life. It was completely amazing. It was like a cloud lifted off of me and all this warm sunshine shone its bright light on me! I was able to make decisions and see things for the truth and it helped me make a decision for myself. I’m so excited to see it come to fruition! I want to wish you an amazing Christmas my friend. I hope you receive all the love and fun in the world. I will be taking the next 2 days off from writing this blog to spend time with family. I will be writing again starting Saturday! I know I have taken extra time the past month but I needed some time to decompress and revamp myself. Thank you for being a part of this journey, I am grateful my friend. See you soon!

Today was a 10!