Flying by Faith
What if instead of fear you used faith? Like as an approach to anything. Not just career wise, relationship wise, but you wise too. Like what if you looked at yourself in the mirror and knew you would be exactly what you want, where you wanted to be, who you wanted to be with, etc. Faith is one of the fundamentals of confidence. Without faith in yourself, a higher power you fall short. Why? Imagine that you have a job interview and you didn’t have any faith you would get it. That already sets you up for failure because you believe you won’t get it so then you don’t actually get it.
So how do we have faith? This question for the longest time boggled my mind. I didn’t believe in something greater than myself or believe in myself. It was all a mystery to me and I spent years in the dark, wondering. And this question of faith is a struggle for many. People get into religious debates, spiritual wars and internal strife over this word. It wasn’t until I started to have faith that the world opened up for me. Remember how I spoke about square pegs in round holes in previous blogs. Well imagine that you are going through life as a square peg. You keep trying to figure out where you belong, wait for some great lady of the lake moment to bestow the legendary Excalibur unto you. But that’s not how it works. By searching you never find, why? Because when you expect an answer, result or a solution the way your mind see’s it you close yourself off to everything else.
You keep going around trying that square peg in round holes, trying to force it, make it work and in your gut you know it’s not right. You know that no matter how much you work at it, try at it, you just feel like what am I even doing? As soon as you give up that’s when it comes to you, the perfect square hole. This happens because you let go of that attachment of how it is suppose to be and open yourself to possibility. This is where faith lives, in the possibilities. We gain faith by surrendering to what is and accept what is. We gain faith by letting go of the need to be right, to be in control, or to be on top because faith is a knowing. When you have faith you know that you will be where you want to be, and it’s up to the universe and you to get there together.
It’s a beautiful dance of manifestation, walking the walk, being open to the world of possibilities and surrendering. I didn’t find my place until I surrendered and gave up searching. I tried to even force 1 other place to be the right spot because I was allowing desperation to be my mindset. But I manifested my space and it wasn’t until I had faith and surrendered to that, knowing it would show up that it showed up. I know this may be hard to hear because we are taught that we have to work as hard as possible to get where we need to be. But the type of work isn’t a 40 hour + work week, it’s you taking control of your life and being dedicated to the process. It’s the commitment to the journey through it’s ups and downs.
I didn’t realize this until I saw an old post I had made on Facebook about how I took a leap of faith 4 years ago and quit all my jobs. I am taking another leap of faith now and banking on myself. But all the while I didn’t realize that working where I did helped me know how to be confident enough now to go for it. If I would of left a year and a half ago when I was feeling the itch it would of failed. I wasn’t ready to soar yet because I needed other things first. Like this ability to let go or forgive, I needed to become so hungry that the work no longer scared me. I needed that 4 years in order to become who I am. So when I speak of work it doesn’t mean your job or career, it means you. Doing the work on you, and it’s not an overnight journey. It can take years, decades or more. Because the work never stops, but how committed to you, well if you aren’t in it to win it that stops.
I found faith in myself and in the universe and am now opening up my first real business. You may think wait hope you already had a business, and yes sure I did. But that was just me, it was a solo act. Now I am opening up a place that will have a team and more responsibility. Which to me is the first real business once you have others working with you. I know where I will be. I just don’t know the details of how I will get there. That is the faith I have, is knowing where I will be and not expecting to know how to get there. But if you have that conviction you automatically take action towards it. Tiny steps that may not even seem like anything. By knowing you pave the way for the future to create everything you need in order to get there.
Faith is hope holding out her hands to you. It’s up to you to grab her hand and go for it. To know that it’s going to happen no matter what and that all you need is to just keep moving forwards. Am I scared of this move, fuck yes, I would be lying if I said no, but I know that I am stepping into something great. I am taking the next step to where I want to be. And regardless if I am afraid or not I still believe in myself and where I will be. So my friends what could you do to start having faith in yourself? What think could you tweak so that your life doesn’t feel forced and instead feels like it’s going with the flow? How could you start surrendering instead of chasing, forcing, running after, being close minded to things? Ask yourself where you want to be and then believe you will be there like your life depends on it. Because if fucking does. That is the work having faith no matter how scary, no matter how ugly or low you are. You will get there if you just, “BELIEVE IT!”
Today was a 6. Still exhausted.