Shame

For the past week I have ramped up and started working hard again. During this time I have felt so drained and just exhausted from it. But in this exhaustion I have felt discouraged. Why? Well as I read this book “You are a badass at making money.” I find myself asking the questions and getting to the root of things. 

So what has this revealed to me? Well that I feel shame a lot when it comes to many things in my life. I want all these grand things yet I am stuck in a rut when it comes to having them. Not because I can’t, but because on the subconscious  level I believe that I can’t. This is when rewiring this pattern is important. I don’t know if you remember but my belief is one of poor girl mentality. One that I have been trying to shift for a while now. It has definitely improved as I keep tackling it and rewiring it. 

Why is shame such a negative thing to feel? It ties with it a lack mentality. It causes things like fear, worry, anger, jealousy and even comparisons. Shame is a heavy emotion that can stay attached in a mindset and something that you can use to counter that is pride. Instead of allowing this negative side of it start allowing yourself to use the positive of it. With me what I do is instead of feeling shame that I haven’t bought a house or saved enough yet for one, I am starting to use the phrase I am proud of the money I have saved up and made in my own business. When you hold tightly to a negative a negative will continue to show up. Remember like attracts like. 

Where does this come up in your life. Have you looked into your own negative thoughts? What are they telling you? How can you combat these thought patterns with positive reflections instead? I want you to challenge yourself to check in. Find what it is that holds you back from everything you want and practice using the positive of it instead of prolonging it’s negative limits. 

Today was a 9. Super taxing at work.